the countdown begins!

hello world!
Im on my bed at the moment, reliving this day in my mind. i can say for sure it was a great success!
but u know what ! as much as im happy! im sad, or lets just say im afraid! yes i am! im in the fear that i might lose this!i might lose this moments with my sister!
well, at this very moment i feel a lamp in my throat! oo tears are rolling on my cheeks, im gonna miss her! i already do :'(
you see, we share a room together. she's been my roommate my whole life! she's the only sister ive travelled everywhere with!
she gets me! she never judges me, i can feel free telling her any thing, everything! she would understand!
i could have these crazy breakdown and she would be there just to get me through them all!as much as i was thrilled for having the room for myself finally after all these years of sharing, i lay here with her bed empty next to mine, and im scared!
i dont want her to go! i want her here next to me!i can ever get enough of our talks every night! we talked ........ 5 mins pause for some sopping .......
hopes and dreams, anger and disappointment, tears and fears, love and heartbreaks, cold nights, scary rainy nights, thursday mornings sleeping, fittings of new clothes, scent of bo5or every eid morning, when mama came in and told us that there's someone proposing, the ugly cries, noisy phone alarms, loud laughter at 3 am in the morning! the unexpected falls of beds! usual fights over who gets to study or who gets to sleep!? ....... memories are storming into my mind!
tears are really getting outta control! and there she is, in the living room acting normal and calm like she always is.
i wish i had half of her personality, her looks, her intelligence, her love and her motherly heart.
she's stylish, she's smart, a dean list kinda smart, she's thoughtful, she's funny, she's wonderful! walla he's a lucky guy!
LOL!!! OMG! im laughing! i just remembered,
every time we travel some place, we always set next to each other on the plane! oo i dont WHY! but every time we book a room with 2 beds they end up giving us a one bed room! we always end up sharing the bed together! LOL! il moshkela ena i always choose the right side, she would be on the other side surely! moshkela is that she rolls and continue rolling lema talseq bthahri oo tnam! i used to hate it! one time i pushed her away she waked up yelled at me and got bk to her dreams wala chena sar shai! that got me talking to myself!! walla! i was talking to myself all night! ena ana laish 7athi 3awai! oo laish dayman anga6 weyaha same bed! laiiiiish! the best part is, we get to laugh at it next morning! :)
sometimes when i get really mad, thats so ugly to be watched, she would just smile when im done and say, " waaaaaaaaaaai 7adech jameeeela " hal kelma et6a5e5ni ashkara! other times when she would say " walla dalal a7abech " :'(
*heart ache*
ya 7elwha! oo ya 7elo kil shai feeha!
آه على ليالي قضيناها سوى
في عمرنا اللي راح ،، وفي عمر جديد
تبري لهيب الروح لو الجرح انكوى
بضحكك المعهود يالحي الرشيد
كم تناجينا وحلمنا سوى
وكم فرحنا ،،
وكم حزننا
وكم تعلمنا أكيد
لك باقصى الجوف قيمة ومستوى
كلام قديم ندري... بس حبينا نعيد
مشاعر باتت في خباياها الدوى
تشفي من حنين القلب للماضي السعيد
خلال أيام ،، فصل من أخوتنا انطوى
وتبدي فصول الحب بالفرقا تزيد !!!
i just wrote that! oo i mean her! allah yhaneeeha oo ys3edha oo yakteb lehom il 5air wil sale7! ;**
Gn all! ;(

8s =D!

Candy tagged me! ;$
oo im about to answer ;p so daaadaaaaaaa ;p !
10q candy ur so sweet ;****
8 Things I'm looking forward to
1. my sister's wedding :D
2. my real vacation ;p " the previous ones were all fake sick leaves (a)"
3. the weekend. FINALLY !!!!
4. a day with my bride to be sister, which is 2day :D
5. my friend getting bk from her honeymoon
6. shopping :D
7. my gown for my sister's wedding! they're actually 2! i have them by next week! i dunno which 2 choose ;p
8. lunch 2day with my friend :D
8 Things I Wish I Could Do
1. sky dive! i wish i had the guts! :S
2. eat whatever i like without gaining weight!
3. give a certain some one a piece of my mind ;p
4. continue being a regular blogger like i am these days ;p
5. hug with my best friend who's a guy :'( walla its harmful! i really need to dive in his wide chests! :( laiiiish 7araaam laiiiiish?!
6. dance in the corridors at work in front of every one to see ;p
7. have looooooong walks in the rain with my prince charming!
8. be in 2 places at once!
8 Things I love
1. my family! ;*
2. my friends ;*
3. food " fruit+vegetables+ice cream+shrimps+galaxy hazelnut chocolate"
4. my car! :D
5. ipodi :*
6. swimming!
7. designing clothes!
8. writing
8 Things I Did Yesterday
1. work
2. napped ;p
3. made some important calls ;p
4. pampered myself " massage "
5. ketabt she3er :D
6. been shopping with my mama
7. dinner with my mama ;**
8. danced myself to sleep ;p
8 Shows I Watch
1. gossip girl
2. Grey's anatomy
3. 90210
4. Seinfeld
5. Scrubs
6. House
7. Ally Mcbeal :D i love her !!!
8. Gilmore girls :D! i love how they " Lorelei + Rory " communicate!
8 bloggers I tag
Even Sweeter!
A Journal Entry

best nail saloon?!

plz plz plz ! etha t3arfon best nail saloon bil Q8 tell me !!!!
im telling you ppl,, i really need it!
ive tried nails 2 U! they're the best! bs i must schedule an appoinment with them! o this just came up!
ive tried dashing diva! mu zood :s
Nail spa,, ham mu zood!
fa plz etha t3arfon tell me soon!
thanx ;**


i like !

علمتني الحياة

أن ليس كل الذئاب أعداء ولا كل العصافير أصدقاء ولا كل الارانب أليفه ولا كل الاسود مفترسه

علمتني الحياة

أن اللون الابيض ليس دائما دليل النقاء ولا اللون الاسود دليل التلوث...فقد يدل الابيض على الفراغ والخواء والاسودعلى العمق والتشبع

علمتني الحياة

انه ليس بعد كل غروب محزن شروق جميل وليس بعد كل شروق متفائل غروب متشااائم

علمتني الحياة

أن طعنة الظهر لا تعني بالظرورة أنك في المقدمه مقدار ما تعني أن اختيارك لحصن ظهرك كان متهاوياً

علمتني الحياة

أن كلمة احبك أمست كأغنيه نسمعها بكبسة زر ونسكتها بضغطه اخرى وننسخها وفق احتياجاتنا و ندندن بها عند الفراغ كثيراً

علمتني الحياة

أن اخفي مناماتي الجميله في داخلي وأنتظر وحدي بشارتها...........فإخوة هذا الزمن لا ينقصها سوى جب يوسف وقميصه الممزق كذباً

علمتني الحياة

أن الذي لايستأذن عند الدخول لعالمنا لايستأذن عند الخروج .......وان الذي يدخل من النوافذ لا يخرج من الباب ابداً

علمتني الحياة

أن الكعكة بيد اليتيم قد تتحول الى حديث المدينه كلها ............ .وأن الباب الذي لايأتي منه الريح ...قد يخنقنا اغلاقه ...ولا يحمينا


oki so,, i need clothes!
i need someone to take me shopping!
volunteers ,, any one ?! (a)


So true!

ppl i love jerry Seinfeld ! he's a funny man!

bs soota ytha7ekni!

oo akthar shai y5aleeni agshi,, ena dayman yge6ha 3albaraaaaaaaaaaaaaad!

ile y3ni mu shad 7ailah oo ohwa ynaket 7ada natural oo too the point!

i just love him!

today i read some of his quotes, and i really loved this one:

" Seems to me the basic conflict between men and women, sexually, is that men are like firemen. To men, sex is an emergency, and no matter what we're doing we can be ready in two minutes. Women, on the other hand, are like fire. They're very exciting, but the conditions have to be exactly right for it to occur."

LOL !!!

this one:

"I am so busy doing nothing... that the idea of doing anything - which as you know, always leads to something - cuts into the nothing and then forces me to have to drop everything."

hathi 3ajeeeeeba:

" Where lipstick is concerned, the important thing is not color, but to accept God's final word on where your lips end."

i love the guy! just thought id share some laughs with u guys! ;**

goodnight! ;)


I love the English Langauge, I really do!
I love grammar! I love writing!
My favorite Subject in School was English!
all my friends count on me in reviewing their papers and sometimes writing them!
I have this supervisor in Work who doesn't know ko3a min bo3a in English!
When I write something in English, he corrects me! o when he does, what he really really really does is just fragment mistakes all over!
I hate it!
walla 7afith la kelmtain in english oo bs m3aleq 3laihom!
oo lama ya36eni notes yabeni aktebhom yge6 li 7achi bilhawa oo ana asee'3a oo when I do! he corrects me!
what am I to do?!
I just type what he says! moshkela he corrects his own words! oo ilmoshkela ila3tham ena bs yabi y3adel bs yabi ysale7!
tafeh! mot5alef! jahel! sa5eeef! ema3a! raj3i! falsafchy! ykather 7achi!
3nda authorities ma yadi shysawi fehom!
bs bgait at7al6am! now barid baktib la ile yabi!
arahenkom ra7 y3adel!!!!!!! ;@



Ive been thinking alot lately about me. Yes me and what im about.
I have started this blog just so I could find out. So i could have the courage to be alone with myself here on this screen. Maybe it doesnt make sense for you. But i believe that the hardest thing that you might have to do, is being honest with yourself.
It is hard, because when you're there on your bed thinking your brain to sleep. You dont really want to think that you're a bad person or even you made a mistake or you were selfish or you are ugly or maybe stupid. No one likes to think bad things about him/herself and yet not all of us have good levels of self esteem and self confidence. talk about Ironic!
I can hardly say that im confident. I guess I am in some areas in life while in other areas id be so insecure.
Well, today i spent my whole day on the living room couch, watching tv and not really watching just looking at that screen and thinking in my little brain cells, who am i? why am i here? what do i really want to do? those thoughts were on my mind all day long, until my friend called me and asked me this: I wanna do something that would make me really happy, something that would make me high, whats that?
I started suggesting things like more sports, any interest in fashion designing, writing, music any thing. And the result we both got confused. Obviously her call made it only worse. I started thinking even more about how bored i am, food is tasteless now, music is not as it used to, books are blah, sport is a waste of time, friends are like old news and the Internet OMG dont get me started.
Nothing really amuses me any more. although i was in a really good mood last week. now i can only think about what im about. which is apparently a mystery.
There is an upside to all this. I think im gonna write a list of what im NOT! this way i can narrow my interests and then maybe i can find what my true identity looks like :S !
I will post this list soon!
Now im gonna hit the sack real hard. Im really tired from all the thinking :S :(
On another note, do you think that i have hatha ile ysamona " ekte'ab " ?
gn ppl
D ;**